Mondays come with a mixed bag of emotions. From whatever is lingering in the aftermath of the weekend, to the sheer fact that when school is in session, there is a repreive if the kids are all in school. And then there is always church on Monday night at our seemingly famous Kersey Cowboy Church.

Tonight was a great service and one I truly enjoyed, but I generally do. I find them edifying to the spirit and some nights the Holy Spirit is moving so strong! It was that way a few weeks ago, regardless of the numbers of people present, the spirit was moving. Tonight was good as well.

However, in the after math of a new constitution being drafted there were some stumbling blocks brought to my attention. Of course, I have never been one to table my thoughts for another day or move on without at least addressing my questions, concerns or interests.

I share this not to necessarily bring to light the stumbling blocks, not that this would be a problem, but rather it's just too long to get into right now. Maybe on another day.... But to address the ease and comfort in which we as members can address our thoughts, concerns and interests.

The conversation was enlightening, though at first I was struggling, even with the initial answer. Not that I disagreed with what the Bible said, but that in it all I felt there was some level of contradiction. Perhaps I didn't really grasp the depth of why I was struggling as I couldn't nor did I desire to argue what the Bible says. I have read the verse that was in question.

However, through the on going communication I was able to finally voice what it was that was tripping me up in the whole matter and come to some absolution or better stated, resolution of the matter; if for no other reason than my own questions.

Interestingly enough the question in check does not apply to me personally, it couldn't apply. However, that hardly leaves me worthy... I personally don't see any of us as worthy outside of the blood and grace of God.

Nonetheless, the comfort in the dialog was the dialog itself. It is refreshing to be able to discuss and discuss again until there is some deeper level of understanding.

The conversation went beyond this with consideration to what Abraham was forced to face in the consideration of sacraficing his son. Of course, for any of us who know the story, know that God spared him from having to follow through with this act of faith at the last possible moment.

I questioned this in our on going conversation tonight. I couldn't do this at any level, it would be far easier to sacrafice myself thna my son or any loved ones.

I can accept that God granted my son to me and that this blessing was his to give and his to take. Truth be knonwn, I fought it for so long before I finally had to give it up and tell God that no matter what I was thankful for the gift of my son no matter how long I had him or not.

I of course, pryaed and still do that he spares and blesses my son's on-going life and that I will never have to let him go home to God before I myself go home. But in any event, it's out of my hands... Just as my own numbered days are beyond my own decisions.

I have always presumed that the reason Abraham being given such an incredible request was for the creation of scripture to be an example. I believe this example was set forth to demonstrate such strong faith in this man of God, that a message would be derived from it even thousands of years later.

It worked! Yet, it made me wonder why he would put Abraham through such an ordeal. Pastor Shorty brought up a good point when I said I couldn't have done this. He pointed out that God knew Abraham's heart and he knows mine. God would not ask it from someone who could not fulfill the purpose of the message.

I consider his strong faith and I am in awe of the example that Abraham set in motion for even the likes of our generation! What a huge message this is, even for me following a Monday night church service in a barn on a dark county road outside of Kersey Colorado.

I am humbled as always, once more....

I know that the entries of late have been more Biblically inclined than just life in general.... I never intended for this to be a place to preach and teach, but rather had only hoped to inspire.

However, with that much stated, how could it not be tilted in this direction with the fact that I live my life based on his word, presence, blessings, salvation, grace, mercy and love... Without it, I have no life, I have no words, I have no inspiration!

I hope that the reality of how my God walks me through each day, each step of the journey is the way to inspiration in itself; the only way that I would ever have it...

Therefore, I recognize it is only natural that I would find it necessary to share his promises and his love through my words of encouragement and/or sharing my own personal experiences, doubts, questions, struggles and blessings beyond belief!

I hope you are all blessed tonight, as I am! Sleep well and I'll be back tomorrow!

Love to all!