I'm feeling a bit unmotivated this evening, but then again that is not so far off of the week. It's been a tough week to get my heart into but I am thinking positive that it's going out with a bang so to speak. I am looking forward to word from the bank tomorrow - as Pam suggested I gave the visualization a time line... Friday by noon sounded reasonable to me, so that's what I went with.

We are all a bit puzzled by now as to the timing on this matter... Surely a solid no would have come awhile back, but then again it's taking an awful long time for a yes as well.

I have to say, it's really tough for people like me, those who are always trying to out guess the next move by the world around them...

Yes, it's tough to sit back and trust the process... That is why I have to write it, read it and repeat the quote "God is in the process.... Therefore trust the process." As often as I do!

All those wonderful cliche's such as "Let go and Let God".... And so on. So, now I once more show a more vulnerable and undesireable side to my person. I hate to adamit to it, but it can and has been interpreted on one or two occassions as a control issue. Who me??? Nah!!!!

So, here I am Thursday night, unmotivated, bloated from too much dinner, worn out and most of all finding that all the negatives are no doubt a means of dealing with waiting.

I dare say, Chad is not much better at this waiting game than I am with the business's existance on the line. I suppose he comes by it all too naturally.

Perhaps, these are not such good traits, but at times I belive they have been beneficial. As with any gift, it can be abused or simply misused if not careful.

On that note, and admittedly acknowledging that I am rambling here tonight, I believe I will call it good at this and go to bed early for a change. Maybe there will be something inspiring on the TV in our room and I will fall into sleep with more emotional fulfillment than what I am offering here tonight!

Thanks for hanging in there!

Love to all!
Good Night